have you ever feel like sometimes love really makes you feel hurt and useless. all you could ever want is love? all kinds of love, not just a bf/gf relationship. but when it gets back at you, you just feel devastated. you just want to live a carefree life now, just because you got hurt along the way in the road of love. is it because you want to show to that person who hurt you that you don't care about him/her anymore and you are out to live your own life, but in your heart, you still need that person and want that person to be with you right now. however, that person can't be there for you now or ever.
i have came across people who fucked up their lives because of this thing call love. fuck it. so what if that person vanished out of your life and leave you there, hanging helplessly, like so suddenly? face it. they won't care about you anymore, maybe after something bad that might happen to you, then that person will maybe look you up. but do you want him/her to care about you out of gulit? because he/she knows that you got into this state that because he/she walked out of your life. or do want him.her to look you up merely because he/she really cares about you?
a human heart is really fragile. anything tragic or even a small scar can leave one hanging and wondering. "was it me? did i do anythng wrong?" it's hard to mend a heart. people think they are doing the right thing, in order to heal from a love dillemma. but are they doing the right thing? only one who are in that situation decides.
but when it went worser that it should be, there's no point in regretting. before you do something, you should have think. about yourself, about your loved ones. about us. we care about you. i don't know what's running up your mind till then, but i think i feel what i think you are feeling. i know it's not your fault, but it's your responsibility to take good care of yourself.
when i heard, i was speechless, devastated. doesn't mean we are not talking to each other as much, that i don't care. i didn't know it was this bad. i can't bear to see you in pain. i have nothing much to say. i don't know who to be angry with, why this happen to you and not those who deserve it much more?
all i know is, the rest of us will give you the motivation you need. build up your strenght. to be up on your feet and as healthy as a horse once again! you can count on us.