i went for the kick start soccer briefing with yi wen and her friend, jannah, jeyda and sam. saw the small kids trained. it was very cute. still have the soccer clinic for the kids at admiralty care corner event running fresh in my mind.i'm kind of interested in coaching the kids, furthermore, i will get paid for it!that's good enough, because in the semester to come, i'm really needing the money!

after the briefing, we went to buy drinks and bubble teas together, not far from the place we got briefed. the drinks there are so cheap! maybe when we start working already, then we can all go there to get drinks!!woohoo!cool!

went to long john's to eat after that. thanks to jeyda and jannah for buying a meal for me! mum didn't left me any money for today!how sad! arghh!i'll pay you guys back!then, we had a talk. soccer talks mainly. talking about the team, with and without the seniors. how will the team be like after the seniors leave and stuff.the current team and players. i just love talking about soccer! i helps me evaluate and focus on what i have to improve on. every time i went out with jannah, we always talk about soccer. soccer this, soccer that! cannot stop thinking about it!i'm learning about soccer, living it and loving every second of it!

but there's still this something that is running in my mind. i have made my mind not to stop it. but then, when i think of it again, it feels very hard. on the way home, in the train, i keep on thinking about it. should i?should i not? there's many things i have to consider when making this decision. i have been thinking about others all this while.i have never say no to anyone before when they asked me to do something, however, i feel that there is a need to think of myself now! i have to make the real decision as soon as possible. i know that my decision may hurt someone along the way, but what about me? will u guys understand how i feel? how sick i got when i have not enough energy to even wake up? my ups and downs?

you can wonder why i still have energy to be so crazy in the morning? how i can dance all the time? why am i too hyper? well, it's not what i eat or drink..it's my inner strength that drives me each day. i can still smile even though there is something running while in my mind. i can still make people laugh when they are feeling low, even though i'm the one who needs the laughter to cheer me up the most. bccause you guys are what i have. the reason why i live. my friends.i don't like to bring my friends down.

thank you to those who understands me.for now, i have to think of what i should do now. i have to talk to you. i have to make my decision.i hope when i do make it, you guys will understand.i have to do it. next semester will be even busier!:S

shaabooya!