Sometimes, when I really look back and wonder..Why is my life is really that bad? I look back at what my life was like in the past.. When i was young. Nothing could hurt me. I was a normal kid. Small and innocent. Which I still am...Haha.. All that was in my mind was, having the time of my life! Enjoying everything that i do as a kid. Appreciating the word FUN. Then, as years go by, things start to change. I was not that disappointed, but, still, it hurt that bad. I moved to my grandma's house in Marsiling. It changed for thr better. Those days were the best. I got to know who my grandma really was. As a grandma, a mother, father and friend. She was the most supportive person ever in my whole entire life. She was the one who helped me and motivated me when I was feeling rather down. She was also there when I succeeded. Unfortunately, I lost her early this year. When she left, my heart was really...Really hurt... Nobody ever cared like she did. Nobody ever loved like she did.. Nobody can be like her. Nobody can ever replace her. I miss her! I miss you grandma! Really! Everytime I take the 187 bus home, I remembered the days when we went to Marsiling Point together and the day when we wanted to take the twins home from school. I was sick and could not eat for days. You let me rest on your lap while we sitting down. You massaged my head for me. It was a touching moment ever. I cried one time in bus, when I thought about her. Seriously. I hope nobody saw that! Hahaha! Her last few days on Earth was the saddest moments ever. The things that happened when she was about to go, was unbearable. It happened so fast! She was taking in her last few breaths in front of me, in front of everyone... As soon as her last breath was taken...As soon as she was gone. I cried even harder. She was gone forever..Leaving me devastated. How I wish, she was here. To listen to my thoughts and see me grow. I wanted to pay her back, for what she has done for me, but I guess, I was not given a chance to do so...I miss you grandma! Love you so much!!!! May you rest in peace...:)
I'll see you in my dreams...