I know life's ain't easy, but you gotta live it regardless any situations! Life's full of experiences and can be a bitch at times! Just look at the picture above and reflect! ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE!!!
Be aggressive! B-E-aggressive!
:DD!

Sometimes, when I really look back and wonder..Why is my life is really that bad? I look back at what my life was like in the past.. When i was young. Nothing could hurt me. I was a normal kid. Small and innocent. Which I still am...Haha.. All that was in my mind was, having the time of my life! Enjoying everything that i do as a kid. Appreciating the word FUN. Then, as years go by, things start to change. I was not that disappointed, but, still, it hurt that bad. I moved to my grandma's house in Marsiling. It changed for thr better. Those days were the best. I got to know who my grandma really was. As a grandma, a mother, father and friend. She was the most supportive person ever in my whole entire life. She was the one who helped me and motivated me when I was feeling rather down. She was also there when I succeeded. Unfortunately, I lost her early this year. When she left, my heart was really...Really hurt... Nobody ever cared like she did. Nobody ever loved like she did.. Nobody can be like her. Nobody can ever replace her. I miss her! I miss you grandma! Really! Everytime I take the 187 bus home, I remembered the days when we went to Marsiling Point together and the day when we wanted to take the twins home from school. I was sick and could not eat for days. You let me rest on your lap while we sitting down. You massaged my head for me. It was a touching moment ever. I cried one time in bus, when I thought about her. Seriously. I hope nobody saw that! Hahaha! Her last few days on Earth was the saddest moments ever. The things that happened when she was about to go, was unbearable. It happened so fast! She was taking in her last few breaths in front of me, in front of everyone... As soon as her last breath was taken...As soon as she was gone. I cried even harder. She was gone forever..Leaving me devastated. How I wish, she was here. To listen to my thoughts and see me grow. I wanted to pay her back, for what she has done for me, but I guess, I was not given a chance to do so...I miss you grandma! Love you so much!!!! May you rest in peace...:)
I'll see you in my dreams...

Today, was a long and tiring day. Yesterday, was totally crazy! I went over-nighting at East Coast Park with the soccer girls. Planned not to go initially, because was too fatigue and I had something to do...But when Huda texted me, and asked me whether I wanted to go? My mind was thinking very wildly!! Haha.. Whether should I? Or I should I not go??? I don't know!! I thought of the pros and cons of going, because the next morning, which is today, I have to go and help out at my uncle's wedding! Damn! Whatever, I was thinking at that time, was totally worth it! I finally went to East Coast with Huda! We met up first at Commonwealth. Bought some snacks for the soccer girls and headed off to East Coast!! That night was funn!! As soon as Huda and me reached, they were already playing spin the botlle. It was Salasiah's turn at that time. Hahaha! Crazy questions were asked during that game. When finally fnished playing that game, we played "Chuck!Fuck and Marry!"...It was not that funn.. Playing that game, because not everyone played..So, we moved on..To story- sharing sessions. Hahaha..Shasha, laid on my thigh, I laid on Sam's tummy and Sam laid on Zahidah's tummy! The rest just lied everywhere. We shared the nonsensical stories and stuff. After that, it got boring... Sam went home, Yatt went to sleep, Utt was pretending not to sleep...Hahaha...Everyone was talking nonsense! So, we decided to watch this two "couples"... They were mysteriously sitting around in front of us, and went in a tent turn by turn. The tent was freaking moving! Obviously, they were up to something...Ouhhh! Hahahaha! We watched them like a group of eagles...Hahaha...Suddenly everyone was excited and was so awake! Hahahaha...It was a long interesting story....As soon as the second couple went in the tent, some of us crowded near the tent...Hahaha! Serious!! No joke..We were so damn nosy...But it was damn funny! Haha...Only the people who crowded near the tent knows...After a few minutes, we soon got bored of it, because nothing much more interesting was making us amazed. One by one, went back to our mats and laid down there, and continued talking nonsense. It was 3.15 then. Soon, most of us turned in.. I woke up at around 6. Woke Huda up, and tried to wake Zahidah up, but failed. I soon headed out to my uncle's place...Leaving the rest..To enjoy the rest of the morning at East Coast. Before, I forget, Huda told me that, the second couple made loud strange sounds in the tent!! Damn! We missed that! Hahaha! Yesterday was memorable indeed!Haha...I have to turn in for the night now! Going to have a long day ahead!! I'll update more stories soon! Toddles!!:DD!

The thumb needs some correction disorder, the real name for it is torn ulnar collateral ligament. That's the name! Haha! I think I have partially torn some tissues in between the joints. My joint near the thumb area is out of place! It's like bulging out! Urgh! It doesn't hurt that much now, but yeah, when I accidently bump into something or put some pressure on the thumb. It hurts like mad. So, I tape my thumb whenever I have soccer or any physical activities on that day. Anyway, i read up on this torn ulnar collateral ligament(TUCL) thingy...It is caused by pressure to the thumb, causing the tear of the tissues near the joint area. I also read about the two different surgeries...Too disgusting to talk about it! Like seriously! Eww! No thanks!! But, I think I my thumb injury is not that serious. Probably needs casting, for 4 to 6 weeks. Then, do some physio therapy after that! So troublesome! Urgghh! See how it goes! The thing is, just now, when Huda and me went to the Woodlands polyclinic, it was closed! Damn! Waste time and effort! It closes at 4.15 every weekdays? I suppose? I don't know! I'm going this Saturday! Was warned by Vicey Capt to go for check up! Okay! I will! As soon as I have the time! Don't worry about me! I'm "A" okay! Limit2, patah jari je pe(Can only break the thumb!!~This sounds weird in English..but this is what it roughly means)! Hahahaha! Anyways, yeah...I will go for a check up!!! This Saturday! Toodles!

Hell yeah! 1 month free from soccer! This means, more time to rest and spend time with my friends!!! Muaahahhahah! Woohoo..Maybe I'm going to start calling Wenny for dance sessions. Giggle and full around like before. Go out and have some funn with all my wonderful friends??! Wooo! Hoo!! Any of you guys in favour? I'm so darn happy! Yesterday was the last match of he entire league! We ended great, and won the game against Arions Women's B. 1 to nil. Shasha scored! Cool! Good job! I had great funn cheering at the sideline with Nina and Yi Wen!!! We were playing great tunes together! Hahahaha! Seriously, it was damn funn! I was the "horn-blower" while Nina and Yi Wen were the "bottle clashers"!!! Hahaha...Okay, I just gave us names! Hahaha...It was cool! I can't take it...I laugh a couple of times, because, it was damn funny. Changing the tunes and all. The rest of the team was either laughing or joining us...Hahaha! Really3! Funn3! I hope the people playing heard our cheers! Hahaha! I know they did! Hahaha..After the game we cheered on again! Then, all of us gathered..Shasha started to dance...Hahaha...damn funny! Hahahahaha!It was memorable! After bathing, Salasiah, Jannah, Huda, Zaidah and me, we went to Toa Payoh..Thought of playing ROCKBAND!!! But it closed when we reached there! We went to eat instead! Had a great time talking. Open up on our thoughts. What the team will be like from now on. Things are going to change! We only hope for the better! Yeah! Keep working hard! Hopefully, if we work hard enough, it will show us wonderful results next year! Yeahhh-heh! Really looking forward to what will happen next year!!! Hemm...???Hahaha! Anyways, hopefully, next time we go Toa Payoh, we can play ROCKBAND!!! Hahaha! Who wants to join???!! Toodles!

Yesterday, Republic Poly Women Soccer Team had a meeting. It was a talk by the coach on the winning mentality of the team. Initially, we were asked about the basics stuff in soccer. Like the size of the goal post and what makes an offside play. It was knowledgeable. Then, coach assigned all of us to list 10 different ways to have a winning mentality. All of us shared our thoughts together and came up with some points which are very useful. Coach, too shared his 10 ways to a winning mentality. When I listened to his ways, I was impressed by it, I don't know why. To me, whatever coach said is meaningful and can be imply to improve myself. If every player in RPWST adopt all his 10 ways, I'm sure that we have no problem in winning every game. For sure! Anyways, all of us just found out that we won't be going for the Aussie trip. It was disappointing at first, but after that, I think it was alright. Surely, there are many other opportunities that all of us can participate to together, not just the 18 of us. Like what Farrah said. The thing is, when we were told by the team committee, I can see how disappointed they are. Especially Shasha. She was smiling throughout, not in a happy way, but like more like a sad, sad...I don't konw how to describe it, but, yeah... I was really curious. Surely, there's something fishy going on. Only when they told us about the bad news, then I realised it. My face expression also changed after that. I was like..damn! I didn't feel bad that I myself didn't get to go, but I feel bad that the hardwork the first 11 did, especially the year threes, was not paid off. I know life can sometimes be a bitch, but I really, really, really emphatize them! After one disappointment, to the other. Why is it so hard for us to get there, when we ar already so close?? Especially in the previous games that we drawed against. We could have won against them!!! Like seriously! Especially the game against Middle Rangers! Oh my God!!!!!! Argh! I was screaming along the sidelines! Were had many chances and yet it was not accomplished! Arghhh!! Damn! Damn! Damn! I felt like crying...but I stayed strong..Haha..Anyways, seriously, why is it so freaking hard?!!! It's not the squad, but the luck is not there! Hardluck! Hardluck! For now, RPWST is the 8th position. If we win the last two games, which hopefully we do..We can climb to the 7th or 6th position? Hopefully we do! For now, RPWST should stay united as a team and keep working together as one to bring the team to glory! Like what Farrah said again, regardless what happens, hopefully none of us girls decide to leave the team. I hope that doesn't happen too! Like frigging seriously! Toodles!